2/11/08

I hate Alex and am surprised I ever called her my friend. Plus she dumped Isaac saying they were only "going on break" but then a got a new boyrfriend like two days later.

See I first met Alex through my friend Corey in the beginning of freshman year. Alex was in my an advisory with Corey, Kelsey, and Caroline, three girls who's judgement of people I trust. But since I had no classes with Alex I was never given the chance to get to know her extremely well before she was accepted into are group of friends.

Come sophomore year though, I finally get a chance to hangout with Alex one-on-one. When I do I discover she's not someone I want to be friends with. In reality she's a manipulative bitch, who's extremely fake, and would do anything to feel accepted. Corey had already found this out and she and Alex were no longer friends but I hadn't taken sides on the issue and neither had anyone else, even though we all felt Alex was being immature about the whole thing.

But let me explain. See if you call yourself punk then you want out of the stupid labels people have given you. The idea of labels repulses me. Alex on the other hand seems to want to be everything the label my group of friends have been given. She cut herself and the next day happily told me about it. She smokes pot all too often and drinks, even though most people in my group of friends strive to be straightedge. She buys pre-ripped jeans from Pac Sun and dElias, trying to be cool, and the day after she complimented me on my old, beat up, dirty, drawn all over converse and drawn all over jeans she showed up to school with a obviously new pair of converse that she had colored on and jeans with a bag of sharpies asking everyone to write on them. She talks about the movie SLC Punk like it's an anthem to live by when in reality it's a movie that basically says you have to grow up sometime, that you can keep your punk ideals but eventually have to tone them down to surrvive. 

Then theres the lies. She told me she's been a Ramones fan since she was 6, even though I remember the day I went with Kelsey to buy Alex her first Ramones CD because Alex hadn't heard of them. She then will spew out facts about the Sex Pistols or the Clash that I originally told her when I first tolld her they were two of my favorite bands and she said she wasn't really into old bands. The worst though is she told me she hated Green Day and though Operation Ivy's CD Energy was so poorly recorded that she didn't even want to listen to it. Then I mentioned they were my two of my three favorite bands (the other being The Clash) and then two weeks later she was wearing an Operation Ivy shirt and her bag had three Green Day pins on it and a Green Day patch.

I'm not the only one to realize it either. Kelsey is slowly beginning to notice, as is Kayte and Caroline. She is annoying all of us.

So I'm done with her, because I hate fakes and she drives me crazy. Every moment I spend with her I want to slap her across the face. So she's off my top friends list on Facebook (I know that's not a big deal but whatever) and I'm not longer inviting her to anything with me.

"Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening, terrorizing fact that we do not know who we are, or where we are going in this ocean of chaos. It has been the authorities, the political, the religious, the educational authorities who have attempted to comfort us by giving us order, rules, regulations, informing, forming in our minds their view of reality. To think for yourself you must question authority and learn how to put yourself in a state of vulnerable, open-mindedness; chaotic, confused, vulnerability to inform yourself. Think for yourself. Question authority."-Timothy Leary