2/2/08

I miss the Tripod.*

There I’ve admitted it. And I know it’s not really something that can be brought back easily but I just wish we could go back to it. So much of my favorite moments from freshman year are Tripod moments that it’s depressing to think that we decided it was over.

And maybe it was for the best. I mean we are no where near as close as we were. Tripod is no longer written on the chalk wall in the loft above my garage and we’ve all changed and moved on. Caroline’s relationship with Nick is so much more serious, and Daniel finally got his blow job (from his girlfriend Mimi).  As for me, well it’s hard to pin down changes in yourself but I’m sure anyone else will tell you the ways I’ve changed.

But it’s so sad, this used to be the group where I said whatever I was feeling to get opinions/advice, but now I’ve turned to blabbing about it to people I don’t know on here. I still trust them with my life, but we no longer have any real time for each other, while I still see both everyday, that’s at school where there is always someone else around. And yeah, I still hangout with Caroline occasionally, and I’d still drop anything to do either of them a favor, but I never see Daniel outside of school anymore. We all have better things to do and we all have other people that come first.

And while I definitely still claim them as my best friends, I’ve been wondering is that so true? Or have I moved on enough to say that yeah, they’re still really close friends that mean a lot to me, but they’re not my best friends anymore.

*The Tripod was what Caroline, Daniel, and I called ourselves. We were just three best friends who always made time for “Tripod time” and it was always fun.

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